— sinoun (@nuonis) September 15, 2013
Cascine is a brilliant record label company that I love very much. You should check out their releases. That is all.
Listen to this beautiful song by Ditt Inre while you read the rest of the post:
2. voss water bottle
Yes, I’m going to tell you all about my water bottle. I don’t drink Voss water, but I use their lovely bottle daily. When I discovered the bottle, I became overly excited that I had found what I have been looking for: a sexy glass water bottle that will allow me to fit the stupid-ass shaped ice from my refrigerator, store a large amount of water, and is easy to carry/travel with. Thank you Jesus for inventing it.
Speaking of Jesus, I have been contemplating on trying out Church for a bit. No, I’m not a Christian, nor do I think I will ever be. I love the teachings of Buddhism and Taoism and have been inspired by eastern philosophy for many years. The reason I want to try out Church is because I want to learn even more about what Christians believe. I want to learn more about ideas I don’t necessarily agree with. It’s been a long time since I’ve attended church so I want to brush up on my knowledge before I say, “your idea of god is ridiculous” or “your idea of god is beautiful”. Continuing to learn and opening yourself up to ideas is a wonderful thing. In addition, I have a couple of friends (a married couple) that I absolutely adore and they go to a Church near my house. I see this Church’s
goddamn bumper stickers everywhere and I want to meet their brilliant marketing person.
4. voss water bottle part 2
Actually, I have one slight complaint about this perfect water bottle. It’s a bit heavy when I fill it up with a bunch of ice and water. I am waiting for the day for someone to invent a bottle that floats so that my backpack doesn’t take any extra weight. A floating bottle will also be useful whenever I ever decide to get off my lazy ass and go for a run like a healthy person. Speaking of floating devices, I am also waiting for the day for someone to invent floating books – it gets uncomfortable when I have to have hold my book up while I’m laying down. I want the book to travel with my face so that I can read the words everywhere I turn on my soft bed.
5. i believe i can fly
Speaking of floating (on a more serious note), one of my life goals (that I’m aware I may very well not achieve in this lifetime) is learning how to fly. I don’t tell a lot of people this because I know to most people it sounds crazy, but I’m actually very serious. I truly believe that it’s very possible for humans to achieve something like this. If telekinesis is possible, what makes levitation any different? Since this is no easy feat, I can accept the fact that I may not be able to actually levitate, but that’s okay. The purpose is not to just actually levitate, but I want to experience the beauty of being able to take my mind and soul closer to that place. A place of wisdom, ascension, enlightenment, or whatever you want to call it. Imagine what the world would be like if we were taught these things as a child. Sometimes, I feel humans do not see their full potential and we essentially sell ourselves short. We tend to focus on perfecting our external world, rather than our inner.
6. i believe i can fly part 2
Okay, now back to being silly. Here is a random and somewhat completely off topic video I’d like for you to see. You’re welcome.Read More
(This post was originally a number in random list six, but the rant became so long I decided to make it into its own post.)
We are always evolving as animals on this beautiful earth (at least I hope you are), so that means your business ventures should, too, if you’re an entrepreneur. I’ve come a long way with ShiftWeb Solutions, and I don’t mean financially by the way. I still have a long way to make a good living, but I’m working towards to that kind of “success”. Without the failures of ShiftWeb, I don’t think I will properly succeed. What I mean by “coming a long way” with ShiftWeb is that I’ve learned (and continue to learn) a lot about myself, about what I want to do, and more about what I should do to get it.
I never thought, even from the beginning, that I would run ShiftWeb Solutions for the rest of my life. I don’t really have a desire to build a company with employees to help me make websites for people forever. No way. But please don’t take me the wrong way (especially if you’re a potential client). Allow me to explain. See, the thing is, I DO enjoy internet marketing “stuff”, but I enjoy being creative MUCH more. I DO enjoy making websites, but I enjoy making websites for MYSELF much more. With this in mind, what do you get? You get a person that needs full control of being creative in marketing strategies and implementation for a business that she has a stake in. In other words, I want control of what I’m good at and I want to partner up with people who allows me to have that.
I’ll be frank, I’d like to be a millionaire one day. That may not be very flattering to some people who want to live modestly, but see, I don’t want to live modestly. I want to make sure all my family will be taken care of, I want to travel the world and build tree houses, I want to create innovative organizations that contribute inspirational art and ideas, and so much more. I’ll need some resources to get to this type of life. I’ve come to accept that I can’t do it on my own because ShiftWeb by itself isn’t going to make me a millionaire. I’ll have to find the right people to work with to help me execute my big ideas.
The next step in my career I am making is moving towards having ownership of companies that will give me control of what I’m good at. If the company succeeds, I succeed. I like that. There is more potential to grow if you work with others, you can’t do it all on your own.
I am taking the next step. I’m very excited to have a couple of things brewing up now. My universe heard me and knew that this was the next step so in the past few months, I was presented by three different people with different ideas, but with the same desires. They want me to be a part of their company by taking charge of the web technology aspect of the business. These opportunities wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t have my experience with ShiftWeb Solutions. We all have big goals, but the process and experience while working towards those goals is what helps you succeed.
I still have a long way to go, but that’s life. You NEVER stop learning and gaining experience. It’s important to enjoy the journey as you go. I have to remind myself that. It’s not easy and sometimes things can lead to discouragement. I know it probably would be “easier” to give up and go back to get a “real” job like my mother wants me to do, but I would just be miserable. I know that life isn’t for me so I don’t have a problem pushing forward, even with current hardships. It can be depressing if I look at where I actually am, but then it could be very inspirational to see how far along I’ve come. Perception is power. I perceive the future to be wonderful.
So what’s the next step after I gain the experience of creating successful businesses with partners? Well, that’s easy. By then, I’ll have the resources to execute my own crazy personal ideas… but that’s for a future blog post in the years to come. :)Read More
1. i suck at blogging.
I know, I know. I’m such a hypocrite since blogging is what I preach. But this is my personal site so it’s easier for me to slack off here. Besides, since this is a place for me to ramble; this blog is more for me to record myself like a 15 year old so I can look back and laugh at myself, so who cares?
In addition to blogging for my company ShiftWeb Solutions, which I also suck at, I’ve been blogging regularly for the past month since I launched Since 3083. I already have about 55 posts and the site was launched less than a month ago. I guess that shows you where my passion really lies!
Another blog I try to keep up with that I also suck at is my fun experimental Zombie Survival Kit site. I actually pay an awesome guy I know to help me with this. I don’t know shit about guns, but I’m much more comfortable killing zombies now than I was a year ago! Haha.
And this isn’t the end to my blogging ventures though, this is just the beginning. In addition to blogging better and more regularly, I’ll also be starting even more projects that requires blogging… See the never-ending business ventures post.
2. good vibrations
I’m very good at distracting myself by creating side projects. I’m also very good at not finishing a lot of them. Well, the way I look at it is that I’m just slowly working on the projects and they’ll be done one day. :) Most of the projects are actually ongoing. I created a music blog called Since 3083 last month. I should have done this MANY years ago. I attempted to share a bit with playsunshade.com, but I wasn’t completely satisfied. Since 3083 blog allows me to easily keep track of all the current music I love. I’m kinda of a hoarder, so this allows me to keep it organized. While I do this, I hope people can benefit from it as well — I hope to introduce people to music I love because I love sharing it. Read a little bit more about the site here. I really hope you enjoy it! I don’t plan on slowing down any time soon.
3. lack of communication
This year, I’ve had strange dreams (3 to be exact) that tell me I should call people that I haven’t spoken to in a long time. My subconscious is telling me that I need to communicate with these people, but I deserve a punch in the face because surprisingly, I ignore these obvious signs and never call the people I know I should call. Why “surprisingly”? Because I hold a philosophy that dreams are very important and take many notes to learn more about myself by observing my dreams daily, but for some strange reason, I ignore the ones that tell me I should call someone. Shame on me.
5. love and hate
I don’t hate anyone because I don’t like to hate people. I think hate is just unnecessary energy that is toxic to yourself and the world (since we all share the same space and energy). With this said, I hate to say that I actually do just hate one person. I’m not telling you who, but I think this person is probably one of the most ugly human beings that I personally know. It’s a shame that I have to be close to this person. I have to thank this person though because this person makes me want to be everything that they are not. And because of that, I am who I am today so I thank you, ugly bitch, for teaching me valuable lessons about love and life.Read More
I dreamt that I was dreaming last night. I’ve dreamt I was dreaming before, but this time was different. In the dream that I was dreaming, it was a lucid dream. It wasn’t a lucid dream in my dream, but it was a lucid dream in the dream I was dreaming. It was kinda awesome.
Just so I make sure you understand, let me explain. Let’s say I’m Sinoun A living life with you now and writing/explaining all of this in this reality. When I sleep and start dreaming, let’s say I become Sinoun B. Sinoun A is not aware of dreaming Sinoun B. Then Sinoun B starts to dream as well. That new subject being dreamt will be Sinoun C. Sinoun B realizes that Sinoun C is actually a dream and begins to lucid dream.
The Dream, according to Sinoun A:
Sinoun B was half asleep (laying in the exact same position on her right side as Sinoun A.) Sinoun B thought she was Sinoun A, but Sinoun A is in deep sleep. Even though everything is exactly the same for Sinoun A and B in their sleep position, the only difference is that Sinoun B has her laptop in front of her. As Sinoun B is half asleep and somewhat “aware”, she started dreaming. (FYI, being “half” asleep and dreaming is very common for Sinoun A.)
Sinoun B’s dream started with Sinoun C watching an alternative scene of this video. (What I mean by alternative scene is that Sinoun B “knew” it was the video, but in hindsight for Sinoun A the scene in Sinoun B’s dream was actually nothing from the video at all.) The scene did contain the video’s subject: Rachel. Rachel was twirling or dancing or something and Sinoun C started giggling and talking gibberish. Rachel and Sinoun C were aware of each other’s presence, even though Sinoun C was supposedly watching the video. Rachel started walking downstairs to a twilight blue basement room and disappears. The transition of the “video scene” to the blue room was so awesome and surreal that Sinoun B became conscious and realized that she was dreaming. So Sinoun B was actually dreaming Sinoun C (who was living in the alternative video scene), but Sinoun B is now aware of Sinoun C. Because Sinoun B realizes that she is dreaming, she got really excited and tells herself she will control her dream. (Lucid dreaming is very exciting to all Sinouns.)
Somehow the blue basement room is now just a door and opens up into a dark, but somewhat glittery portal. Sinoun B is a little scared and tried to use her lucid power to get her way out of it, but it doesn’t work. So Sinoun B accepts it and down she goes, traveling very fast into the portal. Because she accepted it, it wasn’t that scary after all. It was actually fun and awesome like all portals should be. After the portal incident, I (Sinoun A) don’t remember much (I should have written this down earlier.) I do remember that Sinoun B/C was having an adventure, Sinouns always dream of adventures! From what I do remember, the dreams involved the Little Mermaid, TV’s, and stars.
Sinoun B started to lose touch of her lucid dream. The dream was going in and out. One moment Sinoun B woke up in the same position she fell asleep in with her laptop in front of her, the next split second she was able to force herself back in the dream. A couple of times Sinoun B would close one eye and see the dream and the other eye allowed her to be awake at the same time.
Sinoun B eventually wakes up completely and isn’t able to go back to sleep and dream. “Oh, well,” Sinoun B thought, “it was still an awesome dream!” As she lies awake in bed, Sinoun B continues to tell herself that she needs to write the dream down immediately before she forgets everything. That dream was too awesome to forget.
Sinoun A wakes up to find herself in the exact same position Sinoun B left herself in. “That was weird. Did I just dream that I was dreaming a lucid dream? That was awesome! Don’t forget to write it down immediately or you’ll forget everything.” Wait–what? Was that déjà vu?
Sinoun A was fooled and thought she was aware the whole time, but realizes that she was actually in a very deep sleep without being the one having a lucid dream. And Sinoun B thought she was Sinoun A having a lucid dream. What. The. Fuck.
Wake up Sinoun A!Read More
Last night, I had a dream about PHP and CSS codes… then when the madness stopped, I saw my family in Cali and hung out with my grandma and cousin. Then I came back home to Atlanta (in 3 seconds) to go to a big party where everyone I knew was there. We were dancing and laughing and smoking pot and pretty women (I know in real life) wanted to get with me. Score! Haha. We were all outside surrounded by redneck trucks in twilight (the time of day, not the stupid movie, smart ass). Then I woke myself up because it was time to get dressed for the day and for some reason this song has been stuck in my head all morning…
Pretty damn random, I know…
Random blast from the past fact: I used to listen to this beautiful song on repeat and fell asleep to it when I was about 14-15. By the way, a woman who loves 90′s hip hop and R&B knows a way to my heart…Read More
Song #1 : Reconte-Moi Une Histoire
I’ll pretend this is my short little radio station and dedicate this next song to the following people: Celso Scott, Cliffton Nash Caster, Kelsi Auld, Lisa Mae Undead, Laura Marie Taylor, and Jossette Woodmansdóttir. (There are many others I have missed, but I can remember people better with Facebook.)
Why am I dedicating the song to these people? Because this song kind of reminds me of me when I write little stories and those are the people I know who have read many of my stories (and many of those stories I’m now embarrassed to share). These people are quite special to me because they know a side of me that many others don’t!
Listen to the whole song through, the second part of the song (after the vocals) is beautiful especially with headphones. Enjoy :)
Song #2 : Wait
I’d like to share this next song because I’d like to take a moment to express my feelings for M83, a musician I’ve been listening to for a few years. So go ahead and click play and then continue reading:
It’s so hard for me to express my love for music sometimes… so I’ll try to keep it simple. I’ve listened to a handful of M83 tracks on repeat many times because of the nostalgia it gives me, but it could be nostalgia from another lifetime. It does what “good” music does, it makes you feel good.
For example, the composition of “We Are The Sky” from Saturdays = Youth is perfect from beginning to end. Some of my favorite songs from M83 are songs that seem like they to have two parts, like “We Are The Sky”, or like the one above “Reconte-Moi Une Histoire”. The “parts” aren’t obvious if you don’t spend time with the song because Mr. Anthony Gonzalez knows how to express two sides of a story without making it extreme, but instead he keeps it balanced and cozy. Each layer is placed perfectly and his choice of noises makes him a man who knows my heart.Read More
1. a dream
Before I forget, I need to write down this dream…
Damn it! I didn’t write it down so I don’t remember!
2. sleep, storm, shelter.
I love bedtime with rain and a storm. It’s like a train… it makes me feel relaxed and cozy.
One night a couple of weeks ago I was half asleep because the sky was making loud noises and I was listening and thinking about how you probably heard the same thunder.
It wasn’t raining yet… the sky was preparing for it. It was probably around 2am when I began to hear a bird’s cry. It was unusual because birds aren’t usually chirping late at night. It was very close by so it kept me awake. The pattern of the bird’s chirp stayed the same. Maybe it lost it’s mother? Maybe it was scared of the lightning and thunder? I don’t know… but I wanted to tell the bird it was going to be okay… I guess it was easier for me to think that because I was inside my apartment in my cozy bed and the bird was outside probably trying to keep safe.
Anyway, the bird kept chirping. And then suddenly the rain came pouring. I didn’t hear the bird’s chirp anymore because the rain was pouring and thunder was at full blast. I slept peacefully until a couple of hours later when rain slows down. I became only half asleep again… and once again I heard the bird’s cry. I couldn’t tell if the bird cried through the whole storm or if it started again after the storm passed. I looked at my phone and it was around 5am.
I have no idea what the bird’s deal was, but I hope it was okay. Maybe it was it’s first big storm and had to spend it alone. But if the bird knew that I was there too then it probably wouldn’t have felt so alone… or maybe that’s just me. Who am I kidding? It was a bird and doesn’t have the same thoughts as a human being silly! So maybe the bird was just thinking… “Chirp chirp chirp! What the fuck is going on? This storm is crazy! Oh em gee! The sky is falling! Fucking chirp chirp bitches!!”
3. shooting star
I’ve lived for almost 30 years and I’ve never seen a “shooting star”, until recently. (Or maybe I just don’t remember ever seeing one.) My first time was a couple of weeks ago and it made me emotional. And yes, I made a wish.
That is all. I just wanted to tell you I saw a shooting star. The end.
4. living by myself
The other day my sister asked me if I ever get lonely because I live by myself. There seemed to be a little concern in her question, almost like a “you should be lonely” suggestion. I didn’t really hesitate saying, “no”, but it made me think about it a little. Honestly, I wouldn’t have it any other way right now. I’m at the point in my life where I definitely don’t want a roommate. In addition to working from home most of the time, I spend a lot of time at home anyway.
My next move will be a big one I think. It will either be me buying a house on my own or moving in with a significant other. I don’t expect or see any of those two things happening anytime soon, but then again I never know what’s going to happen. I certainly don’t feel a need to rush anything. I’m fine where I am now. I have to be. I’m just doing what I can in this journey of mine and I’m just moving along. Maybe one day I won’t live by myself anymore… because I’ll probably get a kitty. Or maybe a turtle. But you can’t cuddle turtles and I want to cuddle. The point is… I love living by myself right now. I know it’s not going to be forever. God I hope not. The only constant thing in life is change… and I’m sure as hell okay with that.
5. colour lovers
Everyone once in awhile I’ll come across something so awesome that I wish I thought of it. ColourLovers.com is one of those things. The site was created “all in the spirit of love”. How beautiful is that? This site is so brilliant and wonderful and you should just go and take a look for yourself.
6. the personal side of ShiftWeb Solutions
** I apologize in advanced for the random ass rant below. I realize it probably won’t make much sense to most people unless they are really close to me and know that my heart was broken and I partly started my business to distract myself.
Sometimes, life situations slap you in the face – hard. I’ve been working like crazy trying to make something special out of my business, ShiftWeb Solutions. Sometimes I get discouraged and other times I feel great about what I’m doing. Either way, I keep going. Mainly because I realize that one day I want to support my family and live comfortably. One day, I want to be able to randomly say: “Hey, let’s go on a hot air balloon ride today.”
At certain times, you live in the present to live in the present. Other times, you live in the present to make sure your future will be great. I think I’m doing more of the latter right now. When you feel like you’ve lost so much in your life you’ll try to make up for it by filling it in with things. It’s different what you try to use as filler each time during your life because you grow and change. Right now it’s my career. It’s my drive to make a better living. Some people may not think like this and maybe I do partly because of the way I was raised. I grew up learning from my parents that hard work pays off, but it’s stressful while you have a family. My parents pushed me as a child to “finish school” and “get a good job”. It’s almost to the point where if I don’t “have a good job” I’ll feel a great insecurity in myself… because I’m almost 30, and I think society expects me to get married or something soon. It’s kind of interesting thinking about that because honestly, my desire to find that one special person has not changed since I was a teen. But when you’re young and in your early twenties and people find out you’re ready to find that special someone, they’ll say, “You’re young! Go have fun!” And then when you’re almost 30 and you want the same thing people change their tone of voice to one more sympathetic and understanding. Whatever society, I knew what I wanted before you did!
Oh, but then there is a conflict or contradiction to what I believe (there’s one in everything). See, if I were to meet someone in their early 20′s now, I don’t know if I could fall in love with them. Yes, that may seem a bit biased, but there is something about the lack of experience that’s not as attractive. I’m sure this is all in my head, but there could be a truth in some stereotypes. You know how they say your 30′s is the new 20′s? Well, that means your 20′s is the new teens… and we know how much confusion there is as a teen. Looking at the big picture, there’s always a lot of growing up to do, it doesn’t matter how young or old you are.
So the point is, I’m trying to grow ShiftWeb. It’s not easy I tell ya. I may not be doing everything right, but I’m learning. And god I swear, it’s a damn good distraction for me right now. Almost like it’s meant to be. What the hell would I be doing if I didn’t have something to concentrate on for myself? I’d probably be moping about how much my life sucks and how sad I am. I can’t let myself do that, or at least do it too much. If I keep dwelling in the pain then I’m not going anywhere. But at the same time, I have to go through the pain, I can’t go around it.
What makes someone successful? We could easily name off a bunch of wonderful things, but for me, it’s to move forward. “Well, what does that mean?” It means exactly what I just said. It’s quite simple really. I just want to keep going. I push myself to keep going because when I’m sad, I feel deeply confused and hurt. Pain is a part of life, I don’t deny it or try to bury it deep inside me. I release it, and then I think about moving on.
A good friend once told me that one of the best things about me is probably also the worst… and that thing was I had so much love to give. The good thing about that is someone will be very lucky one day… and the shortcoming is that it allows people to take advantage of me… by taking my love and ____.
Sometimes when I’m really sad I believe it. But other times I just think they love me more than I realize, or that they realize.
Years ago when my little sister Mony was still a baby, I would talk about her to my friends and then get emotional and sometimes started crying (not tears of sadness btw)… I just had that moment a minute ago, but by myself thinking about her.
I will get like that every once in awhile, but I seem to be able to control my emotions a little better now… maybe it’s because I don’t smoke as much pot like I used to. I don’t know.
I know this sounds cheesy, but there is something about children that makes me feel… how do I explain it?
I can’t imagine the intense feeling when I’m actually a mother. I guess I’m experiencing some of it now even though it’s just my sister I’m talking about, but I am 20 years older so there is difference in generations.
I have another sister who is only 2 years younger and she made an interesting point the other day. She said that Mony, who is now 7, will never love us the way we love her. It didn’t really click to me at first, but it’s true. It doesn’t mean that one love is better, but the love is not the same. A mother’s love does not compare to the love of a daughter to her mother. It’s different.
I will always be like a parent to Monyta, so she’s probably not going to understand why I do the things I do sometimes. Even though she’s my sister and she loves me, she probably wouldn’t think about trying to protect me while we walk into a ghetto Kroger. She probably wouldn’t wipe my ass after having explosive diarrhea either. That’s okay. I don’t need her to. I’m perfectly fine with her grabbing my hand to hold when we walk into the random Kroger that’s far from home in the middle of a busy city, which we had to quickly pull into because her tummy was upset. She just needs to go to the bathroom and that’s all she needs to think about. She doesn’t need to worry about how to take care of herself… because I’m honored that I can be the one to help take care of her.Read More
Click on any square, fool around, and make some music.Read More
1. …maybe even better
I saw this near Perimeter mall the other day. I had to stop and take a picture.
2. Sometimes music helps express us betterRadiohead - All I need
love you long time radiohead.
I’m the next act
Waiting in the wings
I’m an animal
Trapped in your hot car
I am all the days
That you choose to ignore
You are all I need
You are all I need
I’m in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds
I’m a moth
Who just wants to share your light
I’m just an insect
Trying to get out of the night
I only stick with you
Because there are no others
You are all I need
You’re all I need
I’m in the middle your picture
Lying in the reeds
It’s all wrong
It’s all right
3. I started a business.
This “random list” for my blog has been long overdue. And the contents keep changing. I keep wanting to talk about how pathetic I am in my life right now, but I don’t want to burden you. Things happen for a reason. And maybe one of the reasons I “officially” started my own business is to help distract me from my personal life’s events so I can work hard on things for myself. I’ve been creating sites for small businesses for years, it’s time I take it to another level. See more info here
4. New projects
Aside from “starting my own business” is keeping my creativity going. It’s a way of expression. One of my new projects can be accessed on your mobile phone by scanning the QR code here. The next project is called Wave Good Hi. It’s a collaborative project with a wonderful photographer who I feel help capture my heart in different ways. I’m really excited to be working with her on this. The project is pretty unique and I hope it will capture what I want to share with the world. More details coming soon… I’ll need your help to execute it.
5. Exercise ball
I requested an exercise ball as my “desk chair” at my part time job. I don’t know what the hell I was thinking.
6. the Future
Who knows what the future will be? We don’t. I have no idea sometimes, but I have to keep moving, regardless. I feel I am all that I have right now so I have to take care of myself, whatever that means.
One thing I do know for sure is that I have to wear 2 fucking dresses for my sister’s upcoming wedding reception in July. First, I have to wear a traditional Cambodian dress and then a purple dress on the second day. My sister made me her bride’s maid so I can’t complain too much, but still… WTF?! I said to her it’s like making her husband wear a dress and of course she said, “he’s not a woman!” And then I thought to myself… I’m not even thinking about my sex, I’m thinking about the fact that’s just not something I wear. Last year I went to two weddings and I wore pants and a tie. Not very creative, I know, I could be, but money stops me sometimes. Who says a woman should wear a dress and men should wear pants? I can’t wait when society gets over this. They might not in my lifetime, but if you really think about, it’s quite ridiculous. Not looking forward to wearing uncomfortable clothes!
Another thing I know for sure is I will be getting my poster in the mail soon. I can’t wait.
And another thing I know for sure is… wait, I’m not sure. Nevermind.Read More